Breastfeeding complication Nipple Infection

I wanted to feed HX till 23 months , like what I did for HE. However, I had to stop much earlier at 19th month due to complication. I never expected that I developed nipple infection at the late stage of breastfeeding journey. For the past one month, I had on and off sore, then cracked nipple. It was painful as it happened on both side, but resolved when I apply saline rinse and vaseline. However, it recurred, then resolved when I applied fusidin cream.
Suddenly, it cracked again, but the wound looked different, with some sloughs and with oozing. At the same time, HX was coughing and her mouth had really bad smell. I applied the fusidin cream consistently, hoping that it would heal. Only left side was affecteed, hence I only fed HX the right side. However, as I noticed that there was one tiny pustule on my right too, and my left was inflammed and pain till I cried, I needed to see Dr Koe. I started with oral antibiotic too. As Dr Koe concerned that HX might have passed on the bacteria to me, she had to start oral antibiotic too.
Then I got to ask for babysitter help to take care of HX for overnight for a week.
I seeked a nurse help, and she helped to clean my wound and apply dressing. However, as I was still lactating, I got to take out twice a day, to empty the breast, and it was truely painful, Above was the picture of the dressing I took out, could tell how bad my left breast was. It basically affected the whole area of arveola. It seemed different from mastitis and more superficial skin infection, but a real bad one.
How about HX? After 5 days, I tried to bring her back to home at night. First night of not breastfeeding was difficult. However, it only took her one night. Next day onwards, she never asked for nen nen...sch adorable girl. Need to tell details in next post.

In memory of my father_2

           Next day, the maid came to take over my brother to take care of my father. I was glad that she was around, and more glad that she was someone that my father trust and rely on, which hardly happening in my father life, in addition, she was also someone who could bear all the scoldings. Later I saw the blood investigation and found his renal profile was deranged. Furthermore, the doctor-in charged also told me that it was stranged that the previous private hospital did all the tests but a proper blood test. I felt sad hearing that, if I were there with him, possibly I could stop all the unnecessary tests that could even strained his body further. Later, to confirm diagnosis, my father need to go through bone marrow aspirate which could be painful as it involved spine. However, my father could go through it without much whining. Later at night, nurses also had to put ryle's tube to start feeding, again, my father cooperates very well. For first time after many many years, I hold his hands and kept encouraging for swallowing the ryle's tube so that it could get to the stomach. At this moment, with the strong will to live, my father did impress me, that he was a brave man. If it were me, possibly I would be whining here and there.
His stomach was really bloated, however, no one, not even doctor was able to find the real cause and treatment, although my father keep complaint of stomach pain. It was also not the typical symtoms of AML.

In memory of My father

           Never it occured to me that I need to face the faith testing this way. As I mentioned that the value that I lost seem getting bigger and bigger. and this time, its my father.
One Sunday, my father called me up and complaint that he felt always tired. Knowing my father who used to be a complainer and complaint the same thing when he was 40 plus, I didn't pay much attention to the same description by a 70 year old man. Then the following Tuesday, 26th April, my brother called me up and informed that father was admitted as he was almost fainted. I started to get worried. After that, doctor called me up and informed that my father was found to have Leukaemia! Although I heard it many times in my profession, its still shocking when someone close had it. As I informed my sister, I couldn't even finish my sentence but crying. Although our relationship with father used to be tensed, but in this juncture of time, all we had is daughters worried for father. As I saw my father at the emergency unit, I was even more sadden when I saw his frail body. No wonder he seemed to have lost so much of weight during my daughter's one year old dinner. Somehow I kept wanting to take family photo since chinese new year, but I never expected that's the last time we could have photo together.
My father was later admitted to the general ward, which he objected a lot. However, to ensure that he got a better care, we could only say that's doctors order and rejected his request to another 2 person ward with less experienced nurses. As the salt level was low, he appeared to be a bit disorientated, keep asking the maid to get the pant that was hanging somewhere, thinking that he was at home. For the first night, my younger brother spent the night there.

Bad thing can come more than two/three

Its been quite since I last blog. Things happened almost everymonth, and the value is getting bigger and bigger. In March, I lost my car. How it happen? As I stayed in a condo with only one car park, my proton iswara has to give way to another car and be parked outside the condo compound. Frankly speaking, its never come into my mind that it could be stolen as there were many other more valuable car, like Honda and Toyota parking along the same road. However, one Sunday morning on 20th March, the car was gone! As I made police report, mine was the second car reported, another report were made earlier and interestingly, apart from the owner and car plate number, the rest were the same. It looked like the theft was targeting the proton Iswara.
With this loss, it had brought me inconvenience. Thank God that my babysitter was kind enough to give us a lift to work and send En En to school, otherwise I wondered how I could get to work. Of course we paid her some petrol but she had to be willing to do that and I really appreciated it. Guess it was more valuable to find one kindness than an object loss.

I have Mastitis!!

My girl is going to be one year old. Unexpectedly, I got mastitis (or so I think)! My left breast start to feel pain at one side in the morning. I thought it's just blocked duct and will relieve after a few pumping session. However it is still there after 3 pumping session.
Then after I pour the milk to another bottle, to my surprice, one of the bottle has some sendiment at the base. "I thought the bottles were clean when I used them in the morning?" Anyway, thinking that my bottle is not clean, I throw some of the milk that may be in contact with that bottle. On the same day, I had fever too and I needed to take paracetamol twice.
Since I still felt pain, I try to hand express my left breast. To my horror, I did find the milk looked different in colour, its more yellowish! Then the next day, as I compare the bottle containing the milk from different side, this was what I found

The one on the right was from my left breast, it looked more yellowish and thicker. Then I realised that so called sendiment could be the 'pus'. Since then, I tried to empty during shower, its started on Tuesday and persisted till Friday.

Finally, the pain was gone. Just as I felt the relieve, it started again on the following Thursday, this time its my right breast! Again I was feverish and needed to take paracetamol once. But this was not as painful as the first episode and the pain was relieved after I empty, however the yellowish thick milk could only be hand-expressed as it couldn't be out with electrical pump.
Really didn't expect this could happen to me. Hopefully it won't recur again when I reduce daytime pumping session to twice only after HX turn one.

Latest update on HE and HX

Till now I couldn't break the record of HE and HX having fever and upper respiratory tract infection every month. Just I thought this January can be record breaker month, HX had fever on the 31st Jan! This time HE was better as she had no fever but running nose and cough only. But HX had fever on off- with low grade for 3 nights then she had bad cough with phlegm and running nose for almost 3 weeks now.
I was worried that it could turn into pneumonia, hence brought her to see Dr Koe. Good that her lung was clear. Despite there were still running nose and cough, I asked for Pneumococcal vaccine. She had not had her second dose eversince her very first fever in Sept. This time I thought vaccine could boost her immunity, so, with Dr agreement, we went ahead and jab the second dose.
As on 18th Feb, HE height : 96 cm
                                weight: 14kg
                          HX weight: 7.4kg      ( 3 months ago, she was 6.9kg), her growth chart was approaching the yellow zone. sigh....I hope to boost up her weight too. I could tell her face was thinner.  Poor her. Hopefully no more sick.

Bad things come in two/three?

I have been having headache with the renovation. I thought that's bad enough, but today is worse.
My colleagues give me the tips of treating the contractor with food. So I head to Tesco to get some drinks and probably biscuits. However I am still pretty upset with the kitchen guy way of forcing the cabinet into my house. So my mind is pretty occupied with contemplation and 'things to do...'
After I park, I move my backpack to the seat behind, keeping my car key into my wrislet and walk, FORGETTING TO LOCK MY CAR!!! I sense that I miss something but not sure what.
When I grab a trolley and took some things, as I walk to another side of basket and back, my trolley is gone. The sense of something not right is stronger, I thought I am just having a bad day. In the same time I am aware that I forgot to take my just 3 weeks old HTC smartphone with me. And somehow I am reminded 'Have I locked my car?' hopefully my phone won't be stolen. Anyway, silly me grab another trolley and continue shopping.
As I walked back to my car, I felt something not right, there seem to have someone in my car! I walked slowly pushing the trolley, and check again from close distance...no...no one is in the car. I took out car key, as I try to press open, the sound " du..du..du..du" That's not right! It sound like one of the door is not closed properly. True enough I saw Xyn car seat was moved to one side, my bag drop to another side, smartphone was gone! I confirmed its being stolen instead of drop out when my ipod is gone too. The thief even got all the time and remember to zip back my bag somemore. sigh...
I put the blame to kitchen guy. The moment I put deposit, the following I was sick, have fever for 2 episodes at one week interval. Then my daughters and I had fever with cough and cold every month! That's terrible. I hope that the cabinet is ok and I am done dealing with the cabinet guy. and I pray the cabinet will remain ok even after chinese new year and not being dismantle, damaged or stoledn as I didn't put up grille yet. I am also warned that there are people wanting to steal copper wire when the wiring is up. I learn a hard hard lesson this time round of renovation.

Complication of renovation

I feel I am stucked. For all the survey that I have done, it seemed to be backfire, ended up I have too many ideas and when I discuss these ideas with various contractor that I have, most of time it is either sound silly to them ( then they will cannot do like that...like that will cause....), or ' we will just do what you want'... not helpful.
I think I have done a few mistake during this renovation process
1) Different contractor for different works. I have one doing wetworks for turning backyard to wet kitchen; one doing wiring, one doing plaster ceiling, and one doing kitchen cabinet, and another one painting.
I regreted this, I do this for obvious reason: I thought it can save cost. However... coordination is tiring and time consuming, the wiring service don't include patching work and smoothen wall, the plaster ceiling guy service don't include ceiling painting, then the wetwork guy ask why all the electrical fitting is up before the painting is done as it will affect the painting.
2) Engage cabinet guy too early. The very first deposit that I pay with regards to my new house is dining table and beds, next is kitchen cabinet at my dry kitchen area. After paying up deposit, the next weekend they come to measure, then the very next Monday the guy start doing my cabinet already. I haven't decided which fridge to get and probably eye on Fridge of brand S, rightaway they proceed to make the tall cabinet according to that size. Then they keep asking me when the cabinet can be installed. The cabinet is done in september last year, till today my wet kitchen is not quite done yet, wiring is not quite done yet, but the cabinet guy insist that the cabinet can be up despite there is no painting work, as they rush to deliver the cabinet out of their factory and get payment before Chinese New Year. 

I am upset, as it seem the cabinet guy and the wiring guy ( both handled by same contractor anyway) seem don't care about my house finishing, just want to get the so-called agreed work done and walk away. I can only pray for the after sale service is not bad if not good. My wetwork guy is good enough to concern for me, as he has engaged painting service ( though I am planning to engage another one which is much cheaper, more than RM600 difference.

3) Probably I focus on the cost so much so I end up loosing. I might have to pay extra to get another guy to finish up after one guy is done his work. All this make me Penny wise, Pound foolish.

I really feel like I have messed up.