I have Mastitis!!

My girl is going to be one year old. Unexpectedly, I got mastitis (or so I think)! My left breast start to feel pain at one side in the morning. I thought it's just blocked duct and will relieve after a few pumping session. However it is still there after 3 pumping session.
Then after I pour the milk to another bottle, to my surprice, one of the bottle has some sendiment at the base. "I thought the bottles were clean when I used them in the morning?" Anyway, thinking that my bottle is not clean, I throw some of the milk that may be in contact with that bottle. On the same day, I had fever too and I needed to take paracetamol twice.
Since I still felt pain, I try to hand express my left breast. To my horror, I did find the milk looked different in colour, its more yellowish! Then the next day, as I compare the bottle containing the milk from different side, this was what I found

The one on the right was from my left breast, it looked more yellowish and thicker. Then I realised that so called sendiment could be the 'pus'. Since then, I tried to empty during shower, its started on Tuesday and persisted till Friday.

Finally, the pain was gone. Just as I felt the relieve, it started again on the following Thursday, this time its my right breast! Again I was feverish and needed to take paracetamol once. But this was not as painful as the first episode and the pain was relieved after I empty, however the yellowish thick milk could only be hand-expressed as it couldn't be out with electrical pump.
Really didn't expect this could happen to me. Hopefully it won't recur again when I reduce daytime pumping session to twice only after HX turn one.

Latest update on HE and HX

Till now I couldn't break the record of HE and HX having fever and upper respiratory tract infection every month. Just I thought this January can be record breaker month, HX had fever on the 31st Jan! This time HE was better as she had no fever but running nose and cough only. But HX had fever on off- with low grade for 3 nights then she had bad cough with phlegm and running nose for almost 3 weeks now.
I was worried that it could turn into pneumonia, hence brought her to see Dr Koe. Good that her lung was clear. Despite there were still running nose and cough, I asked for Pneumococcal vaccine. She had not had her second dose eversince her very first fever in Sept. This time I thought vaccine could boost her immunity, so, with Dr agreement, we went ahead and jab the second dose.
As on 18th Feb, HE height : 96 cm
                                weight: 14kg
                          HX weight: 7.4kg      ( 3 months ago, she was 6.9kg), her growth chart was approaching the yellow zone. sigh....I hope to boost up her weight too. I could tell her face was thinner.  Poor her. Hopefully no more sick.

Bad things come in two/three?

I have been having headache with the renovation. I thought that's bad enough, but today is worse.
My colleagues give me the tips of treating the contractor with food. So I head to Tesco to get some drinks and probably biscuits. However I am still pretty upset with the kitchen guy way of forcing the cabinet into my house. So my mind is pretty occupied with contemplation and 'things to do...'
After I park, I move my backpack to the seat behind, keeping my car key into my wrislet and walk, FORGETTING TO LOCK MY CAR!!! I sense that I miss something but not sure what.
When I grab a trolley and took some things, as I walk to another side of basket and back, my trolley is gone. The sense of something not right is stronger, I thought I am just having a bad day. In the same time I am aware that I forgot to take my just 3 weeks old HTC smartphone with me. And somehow I am reminded 'Have I locked my car?' hopefully my phone won't be stolen. Anyway, silly me grab another trolley and continue shopping.
As I walked back to my car, I felt something not right, there seem to have someone in my car! I walked slowly pushing the trolley, and check again from close distance...no...no one is in the car. I took out car key, as I try to press open, the sound " du..du..du..du" That's not right! It sound like one of the door is not closed properly. True enough I saw Xyn car seat was moved to one side, my bag drop to another side, smartphone was gone! I confirmed its being stolen instead of drop out when my ipod is gone too. The thief even got all the time and remember to zip back my bag somemore. sigh...
I put the blame to kitchen guy. The moment I put deposit, the following I was sick, have fever for 2 episodes at one week interval. Then my daughters and I had fever with cough and cold every month! That's terrible. I hope that the cabinet is ok and I am done dealing with the cabinet guy. and I pray the cabinet will remain ok even after chinese new year and not being dismantle, damaged or stoledn as I didn't put up grille yet. I am also warned that there are people wanting to steal copper wire when the wiring is up. I learn a hard hard lesson this time round of renovation.

Complication of renovation

I feel I am stucked. For all the survey that I have done, it seemed to be backfire, ended up I have too many ideas and when I discuss these ideas with various contractor that I have, most of time it is either sound silly to them ( then they will cannot do like that...like that will cause....), or ' we will just do what you want'... not helpful.
I think I have done a few mistake during this renovation process
1) Different contractor for different works. I have one doing wetworks for turning backyard to wet kitchen; one doing wiring, one doing plaster ceiling, and one doing kitchen cabinet, and another one painting.
I regreted this, I do this for obvious reason: I thought it can save cost. However... coordination is tiring and time consuming, the wiring service don't include patching work and smoothen wall, the plaster ceiling guy service don't include ceiling painting, then the wetwork guy ask why all the electrical fitting is up before the painting is done as it will affect the painting.
2) Engage cabinet guy too early. The very first deposit that I pay with regards to my new house is dining table and beds, next is kitchen cabinet at my dry kitchen area. After paying up deposit, the next weekend they come to measure, then the very next Monday the guy start doing my cabinet already. I haven't decided which fridge to get and probably eye on Fridge of brand S, rightaway they proceed to make the tall cabinet according to that size. Then they keep asking me when the cabinet can be installed. The cabinet is done in september last year, till today my wet kitchen is not quite done yet, wiring is not quite done yet, but the cabinet guy insist that the cabinet can be up despite there is no painting work, as they rush to deliver the cabinet out of their factory and get payment before Chinese New Year. 

I am upset, as it seem the cabinet guy and the wiring guy ( both handled by same contractor anyway) seem don't care about my house finishing, just want to get the so-called agreed work done and walk away. I can only pray for the after sale service is not bad if not good. My wetwork guy is good enough to concern for me, as he has engaged painting service ( though I am planning to engage another one which is much cheaper, more than RM600 difference.

3) Probably I focus on the cost so much so I end up loosing. I might have to pay extra to get another guy to finish up after one guy is done his work. All this make me Penny wise, Pound foolish.

I really feel like I have messed up.

2011 resolution

I read what was my 2010 resolution: discipline. Again, nothing new, I didn't really achieve that, I must say TV play a big part of temptation.
Anyway, I think I need make new year resolution smaller: Making my girl sleep at 9.30pm on weekday. sound small, but I believe it takes lots of discipline on me and the rest of family to achieve that.

second wish, I hope to be a better leader with better time management.
I think those are hard enough for me to achieve.

Lighting at new house

I am not sure why its is so difficult for me to figure out the lighting coordination for my new house. I have been planning it out for nearly a month, yet still couldn't find a perfect solution for it.
While the whole area should be illuminated enough, I wish the to have different control for number of downlights for a different ambiance :
1. lighting when watching TV,
2.lighting when need to read newspaper...
3.lighting when kids is playing at the area near staircase...,
4. Lighting when guess come..(this is easiest, basically on all lights)
while also considering its impact on electrical bill later on. I have used power points, draw on the floor plan the likelihood of the lights coordination... but still I am not quite satisfied. Just when I feel its good enough, then 2-3 days later I doubt again and wanting to find alternative. Worst is after I mention to the electrician the light plan (which I thought good enough), I will go back home and think again, wondering what if....
I think the contractors is quite frus with me, keeping asking to change this and that, can't really fix my mind. Even the light shop where I bought also, I think...as I have already change lights for 2 times. and likely changing for 3rd time:P
I got to tell myself that nothing is perfect...nothing is perfect...just live with it.. arg!!!

HX-almost 8 months old, standing up

Yup, this girl is eager to grow and adventurous to test out her new strength. Just 3 days ago, with support of the sofa and her hands, she is standing up, against the sofa.
Let see if she is walking before age of 1 or not.