Musikgarten fo HE & HX

Eversince HE is 2 year old, I had been looking at the music related class for her. But I am never serious about it, partly I am still not so good in driving ( I started driving when HE was born!), so I depend very much on my husband for anything requiring driving out after work.

Musikgarten is the only one that I know will accept children less than 2 year old ( in fact since pregnacy time); Only later last year, I come to know there are much more option for this age. But I still prefer musikgarten concept .

When HX is 2 year old, then only I start again searching. I can hardly find one that is suitable with my time. Most of them are during office hours ( it looks that they only cater for stay at home mum :( ). I have found one in Subang, as that's nearer to where my new house is. The instute is named Vibrante. Felicia, who is the young teacher is very good. We started for HE for 2 months before year end school holidays last year, but then the severe allergic reaction and miscarriage, so we stopped. On top of that, the session is 1145am on Saturday, like the middle of day which I find not suitable to my usual saturday schedule. However, if the timing is good, its a very good session. I have been to other centres, by different teachers, the one in Vibrante subang is the best.

I have been considering Tiffany as another option but keep contemplating as its Friday night. I am afraid I can't make it in time after work. Anyway, 2 weeks, I finally take the courage to try out. I am so glad that I have done it. Its another best musikgarten class I have. Tell the details later.

So much better now

After the miscarriage, I was so caught up with work. I know I shouldn't stayed up late but somehow...bad habit. Life wan't easy after that, at one time, I felt the workload given to me was so unreasonable that I almost wanted to quit. But thank to my immediate boss and my loving colleagues, life goes on. When time past, its not that bad.

I had a great trip in Korea. Wanted to share some tips here, hopefully when I got time. Lots of preparation to do self travelling. 

Anyway, hope I can continue to see life positively. :)

#3rd pregnancy but miscarriage

I knew that I would be given long MC after that appointment. Should the sac not out before the appointment, D&C would be performed. I managed to pass over work and passed up the reports before the weekend so that I could have the MC with peace of mind.

My PV bleed was getting more and I also felt that muscle pulling, but no cramp. On 5th Feb, after having dinner, we went to Tesco to get some staff to prepare for confinement later. Suddenly I felt that my pant was wet. I knew the bleed was getting alot more. Quickly I rushed my husband to pay up and rushed back home. Lots of bleeding indeed plus big clots.

After changing pad and pants. I planned to observe if the pad was soaked for another hour which was the sign to go to hospital. I still didn't have any painful contraction as described by my colleague who had similar experience. I just had one sudden brief pain and then all discomfort relieve. As I stood up and walked, I could feel something , as I checked, a whitish tissue was passed out. Quickly I put it into a container and went to hospital.

After scan was done, doctor said the miscarriage was complete and no need D&C required. Then an injection was given in order to stop bleeding. I was supposed to be able to go home immediately, however, suddenly I sensed tightness at my both ears and kept coughing. I was so concerned that I would experience severe allergic reaction. Thank God that it was just temporary.

By the time I got to home, it was already 1 am. I was very tired and lethargic and I could feel contraction at my tummy (uterus). But I couldn't sleep till much later.

As much as I wished for the pregnancy to be able to sustained instead, I felt relieved now as the past one month was quite torturing to my mind and body. In a way, it was easy for me to cope with the loss, as I already got the news of possible miscarriage on the same day I found myself pregnant. Then there was one month time for me to settle my emotion. In addition, all the while the sac was empty and never we saw the presence of fetus.
 Now it was considered as over and I could move on with life.

Another 2 weeks had past. My emotion roller coaster had gone from worrying, uncertain to calm. My nausea, bloatness and fluctuating appetite was gone too. Another appointment. Again, empty irregular shape sac. When I saw the measurement of the sac has the diameter of 22mm, I already knew what would be doctor's comment. Still no fetus, still no heart beat. One week ago, I seek a specialist opinion, and taken Proluton jab, also had beta Hcg taken. Apart from that I didn't know what else could I do to 'keep' the baby. However, when I saw that the Hcg level only increased by 3 times compared to the level 3 weeks ago, I was almost certain what would be coming.

However, no matter how prepared I was, when the technician announced blighted ovum and when doctor advice me of D&C, I couldn't help but cry. I just couldn't agree to doctor suggestion of getting D&C on the same day. I asked for more time to think about it. Hence another appointment was scheddules one week later. Then I just hope for it to happen naturally and completely without the need of surgical intervention

#3rd pregnancy but miscarriage

Eversince the dianosis of threatened miscarriage, the next 2 weeks were like forever to me. I did feel my tummy is 'empty', only the symptoms of hungry and stomach bloatness that was convincing me that I was still pregnant.

Finally the day of appointment came. Went for scan. As much I was hopefully to hear baby heartbeat, what was found on the screen was the same as 2 weeks ago, empty with yolk sac only. In addition, the shape of the sac was irregular. Although I don't have any PV bleed anymore, according to the tone and way of speech of the the doctor, she seemed to imply that my pregnancy likely wont be successful.

The next day, we flied to hometown for chinese new year. However, it was not an happy celebration anymore. There was always something holding my smile. To make thing worse, my parents in law knew that I was pregnant already and my brother in law's wife also already 4 months pregnant. I was kept asked the due date, the only answer I could give was 'don't know, need to check somemore to confirm'. In the mean time, I was also in worrying state that any emergency event was up during this period of time as My PV bleed was back. I could only pray that it won't happen till I was back from hometown

#3rd pregnancy but miscarriage 1

I always thought I want to blog only about happy moments. However, since last year I was striked but unhappy or challenging events almost every month.
Right stepping into year 2012, on 2nd Jan, I got a real bad allergic reaction, with rash all over body. Despite antihistamines, the flare kept coming back and worsen. I needed to be admitted to emergency observation ward when I had hoarse voice ( which was a sign of angiooedema and life threatening allergic reaction). On the same day, I found myself pregnant. However, within 24hours, also I experienced bad cramp and vaginal bleed and got the diagnosis of threatened miscarriage.

Breastfeeding complication Nipple Infection

I wanted to feed HX till 23 months , like what I did for HE. However, I had to stop much earlier at 19th month due to complication. I never expected that I developed nipple infection at the late stage of breastfeeding journey. For the past one month, I had on and off sore, then cracked nipple. It was painful as it happened on both side, but resolved when I apply saline rinse and vaseline. However, it recurred, then resolved when I applied fusidin cream.
Suddenly, it cracked again, but the wound looked different, with some sloughs and with oozing. At the same time, HX was coughing and her mouth had really bad smell. I applied the fusidin cream consistently, hoping that it would heal. Only left side was affecteed, hence I only fed HX the right side. However, as I noticed that there was one tiny pustule on my right too, and my left was inflammed and pain till I cried, I needed to see Dr Koe. I started with oral antibiotic too. As Dr Koe concerned that HX might have passed on the bacteria to me, she had to start oral antibiotic too.
Then I got to ask for babysitter help to take care of HX for overnight for a week.
I seeked a nurse help, and she helped to clean my wound and apply dressing. However, as I was still lactating, I got to take out twice a day, to empty the breast, and it was truely painful, Above was the picture of the dressing I took out, could tell how bad my left breast was. It basically affected the whole area of arveola. It seemed different from mastitis and more superficial skin infection, but a real bad one.
How about HX? After 5 days, I tried to bring her back to home at night. First night of not breastfeeding was difficult. However, it only took her one night. Next day onwards, she never asked for nen nen...sch adorable girl. Need to tell details in next post.